Brown Spots on Lips

One more thing, I have two brown spots on my lips, fairly large, but thankfully toward the inside of the lip. I am not sure where they came from but I noticed them for the first time about 3 weeks ago. These are a bit scary too. My husband wants me to go to the doctor to check them out. I have been such a ball of nerves I am not sure which doctor to go to. Oh, and one more note on my nerves, I was scared I was going to die this morning and last night because my blood pressure was so high. No fun feeling that way. No fun at all.

Hell

Felt like hell this week. Have had waves of panic and anxiety reverberating through my body. Just went to a naturopathic pharmacy and picked up some ashwaganda and passionflower as both are said to reduce cortisol levels. I think my cortisol has been through the roof. My blood pressure was up 30 points, I had waves of motion going through my body and intense feelings of fear when I would wake up. I hate this!!! I have to say that I am feeling much better now so I am able to write but I am still not completely out of it. I feel surges of adrenaline and fear under the surface. Not exactly the post I wanted to write but this will help me to remember. Oh, and I have had a really hard time concentrating - I am doing something and then forget what I am doing, what I need - just a real panic state.

What led up to this? Who knows exactly but I have a few clues.

1) I just realized I haven't been taking B-Vitamins for I don't know how long - maybe 3 months?? I must have ran out and never opened a new bottle to put with all my other vitamins I take at night.

2) Same thing for CoQ10 - I went off that a while ago too and didn't open another bottle.

3) I have been spotty on taking my vitamins and my neurosprays. I dosed a bunch of tyrosine for a while and then 5htp so I think I mixed everything up. My neurotransmitter came back and my serotonin was on the low side but not too low. Dopac was also low as well as 5HIAA which are usually much higher. Not sure what to contribute this too. These are the spilloever which would indicate not much is spilling over.

So I haven't had this panic state with waves going though my body for about 3 years so yes, this really, really stresses me out.

I am sure I have used up a lot more vitamins etc than normal with our move to Australia. I have been forced to be 100 times more social than I was in the States because I have to get out of my car to pick up my kindergartner and wait around at the school playground for 15 minutes more until my older kids come and meet us there. I meet about 5 new people a day and their kids and they tell me their names and I feel stressed trying to remember everyone. I really just want to be by myself when I feel like this but there is no where to hide!!!

Australians can be very direct and rude and this has also stressed me out. On top of that my neighbor was broken into the other week and had a face to face confrontation with the two burglers. Just the other night we had what looked like a baby snake in my kids bedroom so my husband got out a knife and cut it. Baby snakes are more venomous than regular snakes and baby snakes mean mommy snake and more babies so I was freaking out. He cut off the tail but it was still moving (Gross!!!) When it finally stopped wiggling we discovered it was a salamander that looked like a snake. Gave me a scare!

My son has had some kids who have been mean to him at school and felt he was being bullied so I had to go in and talk to his teacher. I don't want to go into all that but this really, really, really stressed me out.

On top of that, a few weekends before we tried to buy a sofa from someone off Gumtree which is like Craiglist in the States and after we got it home and my husband laid on it, he had a major allergic reaction so I made arrangements with the owners wife to return it and did so and after that got threats from the owner so we had to call the police, etc. etc. etc. Life has just been so stressful.

Oh, and every day, my sons kindy class has a lady that is constantly asking people to do stuff (social stuff) and I get so tired of it. I was asked to do fundraising and because I didn't know how to say no, said yes and then went back and said no.

I know, I know, this is all just a bunch of stuff but it all adds up and I think this is why I am feeling how I am. It all culminated with my son being bullied through. He is a gentle kid who doesn't lash out or is not verbally aggressive so a few kids take advantage of that. Why can't they just be nice and go to school to learn, not prey on other kids. Ugh!

Anwyays, so I am taking tons of CoQ10, B-Complex, Zinc, Ashwaganda, Passionflower and I am hoping this nightmare will be behind me.

Been a long time...

Well, it has been a LONG time.  A LONG time since I last took medication for Lyme.  Sad, I know.  But the move to Australia has really whooped me.  I didn't take vitamins for a few weeks and that has set me back and so now I am making sure all my levels are up before I start taking the medications.  Yesterday I got a yeast infection out of the blue so I took a fluconozole and today had mega-cramping but only for about 15 minutes.  Gotta love lyme and all its wonderful ways it manifests.  Signing off.  Will sign on when I actually start all the treatments!